so hi guyss..
basically i have a thing of blogging when i feel sad so here it is another depressing blog but like im gunna be open once again and say what i feel.. who knows maybe sum1s going throught the same thing..
i always remember the good old days.. wen ur youung and wen ur always happy u no.. we made a fuss back then over the tiniest things like getting a bruisee or sumthin silly like that and everything was just great.. happy family, and all.. then time passes and u start growing up.. u start noticing thing u havent ever noticed before, and bruises are the least of ur worries.. u dont get bruised in the outside now but on the inside too.. u get to know tht people u think are simply amazing are just after sumthing else and use u to get what they want.. they act more babyish than ever wen they do that may i add.. family wont be so happy anymore neither.. stress at school, bad influence.. going horrible in exams because u try to be "cool" and then relise that after all you are the one whos going to go through all that studying and getting shouted at by your parents not the ppl that influenced you into not studying.. and everything piling up on eachother! then wen u go to breathe sumwer else and just relax, he cums with all his might and breaks u more than ever.. he breaks u into bits and pieces..and u slowly fall coz u wont have anywer to go.. even though u know Jesus is there u take the easy way out and go to the evil one.. and he makes u do silly stuff and start gossiping and becum sum1 u wud have never dreamt of being..
people just come.. do there job, wen theyre ready leave and just forget u! literally forget u and dont care about u, atleat they got wat they wanted.. i want to escape, i just want to escape and go somewhere else.. i no Jesus is there i relee do no hes there and i no that hes goin to help me go through this and im going to work at this because im not going to let him win.. im gunna let Jesus win!
and u no wat.. i got to know the most terrible news.. the most horrible news ever and the thing was it wasnt even from the person tht was actually gunno do it.. it was from his friend.. and i cant believe it coz this person i loved so much and never thought he wud have kept somthing so serious from me just did.. and wen i confronted this person he didnt even seem worried.. he told me all calmly and it made me even more angry.. he kept talking like he knew i knew.. and i was so angry i just left u no.. and went enjoying himself..and i felt so betrayed by this person, RELE betrayed.. cause then ppl just judge u and ur the one thts gunna get hurt by all the judgement u no not the person coz the person dus not give a shit! [confusion much!] and the person is gunna hurt sum1 rele dear to me and u no im so sick of all this.. people put so much responibility on me that i hardy have time to solve my own problems! it so so stupid and im rele sick of it!
guys thts all..
im going to trust in Jesus coz i no he will get me through this!
The LORD is my light and my salvation whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life of whom shall I be afraid?
When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall.
Though an army besiege me,my heart will not fear;though war break out against me,even then will I be confident.
One thing I ask of the LORD,this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life,to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.
For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock.
Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me; at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will sing and make music to the LORD.
Hear my voice when I call, O LORD; be merciful to me and answer me.
My heart says of you, "Seek his face!" Your face, LORD, I will seek.
Do not hide your face from me, do not turn your servant away in anger; you have been my helper. Do not reject me or forsake me,O God my Savior.
Though my father and mother forsake me,the LORD will receive me.
Teach me your way, O LORD; lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors.
Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,for false witnesses rise up against me, breathing out violence.
I am still confident of this:I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
Love and Blessings
8 years ago